Rain

Do you like rain?
It has been raining for everywhere,
it is following me,
from Halifax to Toronto.

Haha, to tell you the truth,
I do miss the rain,
because it makes me feel like home.
After years of being isolated,
separated from home, friends, ocean,

I really don't mind raining at all.
Although, it makes me wet and cold,
and in result i am SICK now,
I still like it.

It is one of the best memory I had,
be loved by family, friends, significant others.
I was lack of love and care for so long,
and I almost forgot how to love people too.

Do you think people need to be loved before they love others?
It is kind of selfish, but honestly it happens all the time.
I guess we can also look at it this way,
people need to learn how to love people by showing them what love is,
To know what love is, they have to actually feel it.
So they need to be loved before they can give love to others.

Good thing to be a Christian,
I got the love from god, and it is boundness and unlimited,
so I am picking up on how to love people.
Never too late, yeah =D.

Almost there!

I can see the day now,
the upcoming challenge.
After all the pain from the last 2 month,
I can almost touch it now.

A chinese phase:
"Have time to die, but not sick"
I totally feel that now.
Sick is really a luxury when you are busy.
However, it happens.
I need to hold on,
I need to finish it.
It is only a week left,
and then I will be relief
for a while.

Next one is coming in May next year.
Haha, it just never ends.
What if it ends now,
will i feel bored without them around?
Yes, I will.
Enjoy the process of learning,
and hold it tight =D.

Simple

What do you need for your life?
What do you want for your life
What are you looking forward to for the rest of your life?
Then, what do I need for the rest of my life?

What kind of life do you want to have?
Wokring toward to something you really want to have.
Money, reputation, recognition,
a nice house, a luxury car...
That is something people want to have in their lives,
and they spend almost their own lives to get it.
Do you think it worths it?
Is that what you need for your life?

I do need a shelter,
so i don't need to stay outside.
I do need food,
so i wouldn't be hungry.
I do need clothes,
so I can keep myself warm.
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.
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That is physical need to survive.

Are you survive to live or live to survive?
it comes down to question that
are you happy and satisfied with what you have?
eventhough I have more than what I need,
I can be unhappy.
Why?

Because of love,
I need to be loved, and to love.
Everything has an expiry date,
but only love is everlasting.

The world is beautiful, because we all have love in ourselves.

Reborn

I like the word Reborn,
New life,
New challenge,
New thoughts,
New believes,
And new ME!!!

=D

Thanksgiving

What does Thanksgiving mean to you?
A holiday, a long weekend,
Turkey dinner, family party…
Well, I am sure it means more than that.

This is the first year that I celebrate Thanksgiving,
The first time I feel thankful in my life.
I am sure everybody has something that
They should be thankful for.
It might not be obvious,
Or might not even notice until we lose it.

I didn’t celebrate thanksgiving,
Because I really didn’t know
what I should thank for,
and why I should thank for.
My life wasn’t easy at all,
And I should be thankful for such difficult life.
Well, at that time the argument is a little bit shaky.
As time goes on, and I found that
Yes, I should be thankful for all the good and bad things.
It is hard to say good or bad.
Good doesn’t mean always good,
And bad might be good in the future too.

Life isn’t easy because
It takes you to the next stage of your life.
Without all these, I wouldn’t grow up.
My eye wouldn’t be as open as now.
All the challenges, difficulties, failures, bad times
Are the teachers of how to enjoy life.
Without them, I wouldn’t get to know how good is good,
And how much I should enjoy my life.

Mid Autumn

Such a good Chinese festival.
Eating moon cake with family,
Playing with lantern,
Looking in the dark, and
See how round the moon is.

It was such a great day to me
When I was still a child
I went to the water with my sister,
And rarely with my parent.
I guess that is why I treasure that piece of memory so much.

One year, the whole family went to the water,
Sister and I were playing with candles and lanterns
My parent just standed and watched.
We took pictures, and they are good pictures
Because we finally look like a family.

I didn’t celebrate Mid Autumn for so long,
It means nothing to me without my family.
How can I feel like celebrating Mid-Autumn
With my family members are distances away from me.

When are we going to get together?
I don’t know.
I don’t know the answer for years,
And I am not going to know until the moment comes.
I keep looking forward,
Years passed by, and
now again this time of the year
the moment hasn’t came yet.

To wait for the other year and see what will happen,
But what I am suppose to do tonight,
Hiding myself in the corner,
looking at the moon,
And thinking of them with my 15 years old memory.

Exam

Spending 2 or 3 months to write a 4 hours exam,
Somebody spend their own lives writing exam,
But what the purposes of writing exam are?
To gain more knowledge,
To understand things better,
To help more people with the new knowledge,
To get a better job,
To get recognition from others,
Or to challenge yourself.

I guess no many people like to write exam,
The reason why they write exam is only because
THEY HAVE TO, haha.
Children have to write exam
Which is the ugliest part of their school lives I bet.
Young people need to write exam
If they decided they want to continue study.
Undergraduate need to write exam
To get that piece of paper called “Degree”
If you are working, you still have to write exam
To get your designation.

Examinations will never stops and never end,
The explicit exam might stop at some point in your life,
If you decided you don’t want to do exam anymore.
But the implicit exam would never stop,
There is new challenges everyday,
They might test you on your knowledge,
Your profession, your behavior, etc.

One of my own strategies is,
If I cannot change the fact that I have to face
all these challenges, exams, or difficulties.
I better take it and try to enjoy the process of
How I get over them.
To me this is the color of life.
When you look back and think about it,
your life would be no color without all these challenges.

Love

Love is never tired of waiting;
Love is kind;
Love has no envy;
Love has no high opinion of itself,
Love has no pride;
Love's ways are ever fair,

It takes no thought for itself;
It is not quickly made angry,
It takes no account of evil;
It takes no pleasure in wrong doing,
But has joy in what is true;

Love has the power of undergoing all things,
Having faith in all things,
Hoping all things.

Though the prophet's word may come to an end,
Tongues come to nothing,
And knowledge have no more value,
Love has no end.

For our knowledge is only in part,
And the prophet's word gives only a part of what is true:
But when that which is complete is come,
Then that which is in part will be no longer necessary.

When I was a child,
I made use of a child's language,
I had a child's feelings and a child's thoughts:
Now that I am a man,
I have put away the things of a child.

For now we see things in a glass, darkly;
But then face to face:
Now my knowledge is in part;
Then it will be complete, even as God's knowledge of me.
But now we still have faith, hope, love, these three;
And the greatest of these is love.

1 Corinthians 13 (4-13)