Can Sick

Well, everybody can be sick
but today i am glad that
finally i have time to get sick.

I knew it was coming like a couple weeks ago
So much work need to get done
No time can be allocated for sickness
In the other words, no medication in daytime

It is kind of annoying to take medicine before you go to bed,
all the sudden, you feel a little better in the morning
but after12 hours of work
it gets worse, so then
i take the medicine again at night,
such a bad cycle last for a couple week.

Finally, i can take a day off,
and sleep in, take nap.
Mainly sleeping for the entire day
Study day with no study done,
Relax and do nothing,
that is the luxury of sickness.

God bless!

Timing

My timing is always wrong,
someone i want to talk to,
i could never get a hold of them
someone i don't want to see
i will see them next week

i never get guildance and help
when i need them
i love them
but i can never tell them

sometime i need to eat
i never get a chance eat.
when i am not hungry
i don't get to eat other than this time.

a lot of time i want to study
they never let me.
and i don't want to study
i just need to study

i need to go to sleep
but i don't feel asleep
i want to work
i feel like in bed.

it is a mess,
my past, present, and future
when i can get the timing right
I really need a break to straight things out.

Worthy

What is worthy?
Something or somebody
that you value the most
and like the most,
love the most.
How do you value thing
also change as time goes.

Somebody was so important to you,
As worthy as
who you are willing to spend a LOT
oftime, care, love, energy, money
to keep him/her.

In return,
it might only be a broken heart
left on the street.
Nobody cares or
nobody even notices
Then what...
During the emptiness moment,
you will ask yourself,
does it worth to have done all these things for him/her?
Why do i put myself in such a place,
cold, dark, isolated, in the middle of nowhere?

I was hoping for someone
who i can spend my whole life with
Someone worthwhile offering my heart to.
However, I don't even know
This person really exists or not.

All the crazy things happened in such a short period of time.
Life really isn't easy....
have to think about this phase deeply again.
can i really do it.
love and enjoy during hardship.
hummm

I don't know but i will try
with the support of god.
That is his plan for me, and i gotta finish it
I will notice that when the time comes.
Faith in god, he will never be late.

Happy 2007 New Year!!!

Time has gone by fast last year.
And I have achieved almost nothing.

My 2007 resolutions would be
Study harder for exam
Grow more in Christ
Solve my family issues
Keep up with work
Love and care about others more
Healthier
Learn at least one more language
Pick up my music instruments